Memories
Well it's the eve of the 3rd anniversary of mom's passing. As these key dates arrive and pass, I always regret not having more pictures, videotapes, or recordings of her. Some of these pictures I just recently found on an old picture CD but the quality isn't great. I think I took them with a regular 35mm and had them put it on a CD. These were from her many visits to me the first time I lived in California. We drove down to Los Angeles one of those times to visit Pipo and Gladys. The picture with Auntie Lila was taken on August 9, 2003 - my birthday as well as the wedding banquet that Jerry and Deb held for us at their house. The amazing thing about this picture is that she is still smiling. And as you can tell from the date this was taken, it would've taken a tremendous amount of courage to have that smile at that point in time. I'll always miss her.
posted by Rick, Pam, JC and Sara at 10:12 PM
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I have been meaning to leave a comment since the 3rd anniversary, but I've been so busy. This is the poem I wrote right around the time of her death so I thought I would post it here:
I'm hungry, but I can't eat. Tired, but I can't sleep.
Every time I think of you I begin to weep.
The tears flood my eyes. I can't see. I can't hear.
The thing I'll miss most is you being near.
It's hard to watch you suffer. I remember when you were well.
I don't want to let you go. My mind begins to swell.
I think of all the memories, all the good times that we had.
I think of all those great songs, but now they make me sad.
You told me many stories I never will forget.
You taught me many things. I'm forever in your debt.
I know how much you love me. I hope you know I love you, too.
Thinking of saying good-bye is the hardest thing I've had to do.
Watching you get weaker keeps driving me insane.
I want you to stay here with me, but not if it's in pain.
A better place awaits you. No more sadness, no more tears.
I know how scared you are to go, but remember: you have nothing to fear.
So, it may be "good-bye" to this life, but the other side awaits.
You're going to a better place with white clouds and pearly gates.
I want you to take something with you. Something with which you shouldn't part.
I want you to remember that you're forever in my heart.
12:44 PM
Deb - thanks for the compliment on my fatherhood skills but it really does come naturally and I know it's because of mom.
Kelly - this poem is great and very touching. I'm glad you posted it.
9:13 PM
Oct. 16, 2007
I really meant to write something and I keep forgetting,but this year for Minnie's anniversary,we were on a cruise,but before we left Gerry and I went to her grave and brought new flowers. We went on a cruise for a week, came back and the following friday (Sept. 28), my grandmother died. This was the first passing of someone so close to me since Minnie died and it brought back soooo many memories, both good and bad of Minnie. Even though I know that they are both in a much better place and they are both at peace,I really really miss them both. This past Sunday, we went to visit Auntie Lila and sometimes she reminds me of Minnie. Things like when we leave a tip, she tells us it's too much and then another funny story is that she has this tree in the front of her house that Manolo replanted for her in June and then another time when we came back, the tree was growing crooked so he put a stick to straighten it. The tree has since died and Lila said "well it's because Manolo put the stick there and it killed the tree". That reminded me of Minnie so much! I still really miss her sometimes especially when I want to tell her something about my kids. I also miss her when we go to the casino because it reminds me of when she was sick and we took her there. She didn't even seem sick while she was playing.
6:35 PM
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